Registered: March 2005
My little guy is still having such a hard time with the mornings, we've gotten some help though so hopefully it will stop soon, just breaks my heart though!
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First grade, you were so excited, as a matter of fact you couldnít even sleep the night before your first day of first grade. Everything was great too, until a couple weeks into school and I forgot to send a parent pick up note in with you. You kept asking your teacher to call me, and I guess she got a bit frustrated with you and yelled. Youíre not used to people yelling at you, and youíre certainly not used to getting into trouble. Youíve always been so mild mannered and easy going, always the one with your hand up, always willing to help, never causing problems. So this little incident really had an impact on you. I think with that and the long day you just are having a very hard time dealing with school. Youíve never had issues before, as a matter of fact your kindergarten teacher said to me ďI need about ten more Richardís in my class and Iíd be all setĒ. You make friends easy too, at karate you are one of the kids the others look up to. Mommy and daddy are having a hard time figuring this out because itís so not you. Here it is November and you are still very anxious and just donít want to go to school. Every morning you cry, every morning I try to reassure you but itís so hard, and literally exhausting and heartbreaking to me as your mother. You donít hang on me, you donít whine, you just sit quietly and cry, trying not to, thatís what breaks my heart. Knowing you want to stop, you want to really enjoy school and do your best but you donít know how to, you donít know how to ďlet goĒ and for once I donít know how to help you. Iíve talked to the guidance councilor but I think we may need to take it further because she just threatened you with the principal if you didnít stop the crying and as she put it ďlyingĒ (because you asked to go to the nurse a few times). Itís a problem more serious than I had ever imagined and I know weíll get through it all, I just wish we didnít have to. I hate seeing you so unhappy everyday and watching you walk away from me is really one of the hardest things Iíve had to do as your mommy so far. I just want to sweep you up in my arms and tell you itís okay, but itís not okay, not yet anyway. Journaling written November 14, 2005.