WendyMalichio
Registered: March 2005
Posts: 2
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My little guy is still having such a hard time with the mornings, we've gotten some help though so hopefully it will stop soon, just breaks my heart though!
I used some new KI papers and Heidi Swapp goodies for this layout and if you are one to read journaling it's below.
First grade, you were so excited, as a matter of fact you couldn’t even sleep the night before your first day of first grade. Everything was great too, until a couple weeks into school and I forgot to send a parent pick up note in with you. You kept asking your teacher to call me, and I guess she got a bit frustrated with you and yelled. You’re not used to people yelling at you, and you’re certainly not used to getting into trouble. You’ve always been so mild mannered and easy going, always the one with your hand up, always willing to help, never causing problems. So this little incident really had an impact on you. I think with that and the long day you just are having a very hard time dealing with school. You’ve never had issues before, as a matter of fact your kindergarten teacher said to me “I need about ten more Richard’s in my class and I’d be all set”. You make friends easy too, at karate you are one of the kids the others look up to. Mommy and daddy are having a hard time figuring this out because it’s so not you. Here it is November and you are still very anxious and just don’t want to go to school. Every morning you cry, every morning I try to reassure you but it’s so hard, and literally exhausting and heartbreaking to me as your mother. You don’t hang on me, you don’t whine, you just sit quietly and cry, trying not to, that’s what breaks my heart. Knowing you want to stop, you want to really enjoy school and do your best but you don’t know how to, you don’t know how to “let go” and for once I don’t know how to help you. I’ve talked to the guidance councilor but I think we may need to take it further because she just threatened you with the principal if you didn’t stop the crying and as she put it “lying” (because you asked to go to the nurse a few times). It’s a problem more serious than I had ever imagined and I know we’ll get through it all, I just wish we didn’t have to. I hate seeing you so unhappy everyday and watching you walk away from me is really one of the hardest things I’ve had to do as your mommy so far. I just want to sweep you up in my arms and tell you it’s okay, but it’s not okay, not yet anyway. Journaling written November 14, 2005.
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